“People don’t notice whether it’s winter or summer when they’re happy.”

– Anton Chekhov


Love is…

“It’s quite an undertaking to start loving somebody. You have to have energy, generosity, blindness. There is even a moment right at the start where you have to jump across an abyss: if you think about it you don’t do it.”

My Dear Machine

Over the years I’ve developed a connection with my car.  It has been with me for quite sometime and in some cases acted as my anchor.  Throughout all the spirited night drives and pensive cruising it hasn’t let me down.  I’m glad to say that this is my dear machine.

What Will Be My Magnum Opus?

This thought circulates through my head quite often.  After graduating from college I realized that I didn’t want to be stuck in a single spot.  I was never the motivated type.  However, after transitioning to this stage of life I found myself wanting more.

I have no inclination of what life will present me but I wonder how great of a person i’ll be.  I guess there’s no point in wondering.  One day I’ll reflect upon my life and revel in the effort it took to reach my magnum opus.  

Life is going to grind me down and present me with both the good and the bad.  I guess what matters most is how I walk through the fire.

The simplicity of dining alone

Initially I drove to Downtown Napa to pick up a bag of Ritual Roasters Coffee.  From there it then turned into an adventure in solitude.

I decided to treat myself to a nicer lunch than usual.  Chance led me to the doorsteps of Celadon.  Upon entering through the doors I was greeted with a smile that progressively turned into a confused look when I answered one simple question.

“How many today?”  To her question I answered, “Just myself”.  She then proceeded to accost me to the corner of the room as if I needed to be quarantined.

It struck me in a weird way because she gave me a distinct stare, one filled with curiosity and slight discomfort.

The concept of eating alone seems to be colored with obscurity and a hint of negativity.

I could understand why it’s perceived in such a manner and frowned upon. A man eating alone at a table for two constantly leering out into space can appear depressing. But there are lessons to be learned by eating alone.

I should learn how to value and appreciate myself.  If I cannot enjoy the company of myself,  how am I going to provide another person the joy of my company and bring light into their day. A much needed reminder when things go array.