As I sat on a tattered leather couch pondering a certain line from First of the Gang to Die.
“…You have never been in love until you’ve seen the dawn rise behind the home for the blind…”
Morrissey’s words struck a chord in my head and resonated down to my heart. What did this line mean to me? Why would you sit around near a home that caters to the blind? More so, why would you be there for the sole purpose of watching the dawn rise? There are many more scenic locales to choose from; The alps, the Eiffel Tower, the canals of venice, but a home for the blind? Why?
Love is such a grey area. Is it the act or the moment of clarity you experience with a person. A lightening bolt that just hits you screeching “Hey I think it’s you.” Out of the billions of people that walk the Earth, society created a word to describe a unique feeling that you feel towards a single individual.
I began to think, churn whatever gears in my head to create a single logical thought of what love was. If it wasn’t a moment of lucidness what was it? No reason to make sense out of such a word.
A leap of faith, smoke in your eyes, and a fire in your heart. I guess that’s all that really matters right?
“If you love what you do, you’ll find ways to monetize it. Conversely, if you chase money, you’ll end up unhappy and worn-out.”
“It’s hard to tell the difference between sea and sky, between voyager and sea. Between reality and the workings of the heart.”
“Don’t tell me the moon is shining; show me the glint of light on broken glass.”
Initially I went to San Francisco with my cousin to visit Real Guitars. It’s an amazing guitar shop tucked away on Lafayette st. Vintage Jazzmasters and Guild guitars lined the wall. I felt as if I were in a guitar museum!
Afterwards we explored a little more and ended up in clarion alley to view some murals. Needless to say there were some awesome paintings that lined the alleyway. Eventually I some how ended up in Unionmade and purchased a light denim vest for 40% off!
To top off an amazing day the Samovar Tea Bar was a couple of blocks away!
“People don’t notice whether it’s winter or summer when they’re happy.”
– Anton Chekhov
“It’s quite an undertaking to start loving somebody. You have to have energy, generosity, blindness. There is even a moment right at the start where you have to jump across an abyss: if you think about it you don’t do it.”
“Association with human beings lures one into self-observation.”
This thought circulates through my head quite often. After graduating from college I realized that I didn’t want to be stuck in a single spot. I was never the motivated type. However, after transitioning to this stage of life I found myself wanting more.
I have no inclination of what life will present me but I wonder how great of a person i’ll be. I guess there’s no point in wondering. One day I’ll reflect upon my life and revel in the effort it took to reach my magnum opus.
Life is going to grind me down and present me with both the good and the bad. I guess what matters most is how I walk through the fire.